I was just curious how all the guys like their swimmers to look. The Olympics is coming up in August and the USA has decided to go with a full body speedo for their swimmers. I got a pic of Michael Phelps in one below and hes still hot as hell but to me nothing compares to a little skinny speedo just barely hiding the goodies. I think its maybe the expectations of something maybe gonna show at any second and with the full body one no way in hell you gonna see anything except maybe a good hard on bulge:)

Hey everybody yes that's right its time for my bi-monthly update lol. Not much going on in my crazy ass head which is a good thing I think. Some good new is I ain't had a drink since a week before the last post I put up. I ain't gonna count the days I hate doing that it makes me feel like a alcoholic which I don't think I am I think I was just experimenting and I'm done with that so I'm not keeping track of the days. I have decided to go back to school so. Yes I quit listening to the little devil on my shoulder. For some odd reason I pictured him as my "father" and after I did the decision wasn't really that hard. Switching subjects, for those that don't know I use to be chubby as a kid then during my mid teens it got in my head real bad and I started starving myself. Then I got my head right and started eating right and got my weight where it should be in the last few years. Anyway I been feeling lately I'm fat again. I don't know really why other than maybe I need something for my fucked up head to worry about be it drinking or my weight or losing a boy friend or whatever. So Ive started watching what I eat lately and I think I can afford to lose about 20 lbs. before it gets any worse than it is. I got a few pics of when I was younger and skinnier kinda sickly looking and I know I don't want to go back to looking like a skeleton but think losing a few lbs wouldn't hurt. That's about it for the update I reckon. Took a few pics of stuff around my town and wanted to share so check them out below.



I see this old wagon everyday and whenever I do it always kinda reminds me of the old Little House On the Prairie Show. Also makes me think of who all rode on it in its lifetime and what all its seen. My old barber I go to in town says its been parked in that same spot as long as hes been there and that's 40 years so its kinda cool to think about it. Btw what do y'all pay for haircuts where you live. For me is 7.00 dollars it was just 5 till a few years ago and the barbers wife made him raise it lol.

I just love the color of this bush but for some reason it don't look as blue in the pic but still is pretty.

What do you see in the distance? I know I use to stop there about twice a week but since I'm getting fat its off limits now:(

Hey everybody yes I'm still alive and kickin. I know y'all worry about me and I do appreciate it a lot. Also wanted to thank everyone for the emails they sent. I know I should answer y'all back when you say if I ever want to talk your there to listen but I hate like hell talking about myself and I hate even more discussing my feelings. What am I feeling? Why do I feel that way? Hell I don't know either answer. All I can figure is its caused by how I was raised. You wasn't allowed to speak unless you was spoken to and if you tried you was shut off real quick. I don't blame my mom cause she was did the same way by my "father" oh but he always had plenty to say and if you didn't listen you caught hell big time. Of course I been thinking about him a lot lately with me being drinking the way I have. I want to tell a little story about him so you know the kind of guy he was. What reminds me of this story is my little doggie I got now. I was about 13 or 14 and this stray dog had been hanging around the neighborhood for about a week. It was a real pretty blue tick coon hound if anybody knows what that is they are beautiful dogs. I think he had got lost on a coon hunt or something anyway I had said I'd love to have him for my own. So one day I come home from school and was shocked by what I found in the house. My "father" had caught that dog and did what he called later marking him FOR ME so no one could reclaim him from me. How did he mark him? He took a razor blade and cut a one inch nick out of that dogs beautiful ear. There was blood all over the house the dog hiding under the bed scared to death. Him laying on the couch passed out drunk. No need to say I was so pissed off I started crying I grabbed a crutch that was leaning in the corner and broke it on the back of his head while he was passed out. Unfortunately it didn't kill him and I did get the hell beat out of me the next day after he came to but it felt good doing it. I did manage to get the dog out from under the bed and patch his ear up. He ended up staying at my uncles house and was there long after my sorrow ass "father" ended up being worm food. Omg was my uncle pissed when he found out what he had done. If I hadn't hit him with the crutch I think they would have fought but he said he got what he deserved so fuck him. So that's my story comes to mind cause of my little doggie. Just what use to be another fun day in the Pierce house. Don't know why I told that other than just getting it off my mind.

On another subject my uncle has threatened to kick my ass if I don't stop drinking. So its been a week now and I haven't touched anything stronger than pop. I hate that I'm trying to talk myself out of not going back to school in fall. I know its for the best but I got a little devil on my shoulder saying fuck it. I ain't give into him yet though lol. Wow what a long post for me I'm wore out and need a nap.

Oh had to come back and add this. I know nobody likes Nascar but me but what about my boy Kasey Kahne. Won a million dollars in a race and has won the last 2 out of 3 races run. Pretty cool and needless to say I'm thrilled for him,even enough to post a pic of him.

Heres it been almost another month gone before a post from me lol. Really nothing going on with me other than working a fishin a little bit. Schools been out since the second week in May so thats good, To be honest I was getting tired of it. To say Im tired of it may be wrong. I just been depressed and sad a lot lately maybe thats it. One big reason is I miss Ryan and yes I know its over but still that dont keep me from missing him. Another thing is I dont think Im a very good friend. Like I had this one friend and true we didnt communicate much and it was only thru emails but one day I emailed him and he never wrote back so I sent another email ask if he was mad at me. He said no hes just been real busy. So I wrote back ok I wont bother you anymore. He never wrote back and I treid again and still nothing so I dont know. All I know is its sad to lose a friend. I know Im not a good friend,hell I got several emails from guys right now I need to answer its just Im to fucked up to do it.

The guy who was gonna move in when school let out finally got all moved in. Yes he started out just as a roommate but you know how things go cute guy and all alone in the apartment and me sad as fuck so yeah it happened hehe.

Im embarrased as fuck to even say it but I have started drinking. I dont know if its a problem yet anyway but with my dna,genes or whatever however you say it Im sure it will be. Me drinking makes me sad but yet I do it when Im sad how fucked up is that. Ill probably turn into a raging alcoholic drunk like my "father" and brother. Kinda ironic if I would end up like my "father" seeing as how I hateed his guts when he was alive and I end up just like him.

I been thinking recently of starting me a new blog just to post pics of hot guys. I know I had boys club and got depressed or something I dont know anyway I deleted it. But since I dont have a blog to post cute guys on right now Im gonna put one on here hehe. I wish I could say this is the guy moving in with me but just my luck hes not. Not to say the guy who is aint cute cause he is he just aint omg cute like this guy. I got 2 other pics of him showing more but didnt want to post on here so if anybody wanted to see just email and I'd be happy to send to you.

Wow I cant believe its been a whole month since I been on here posting anything. I cant say I haven't been on the internet cause I have. I just haven't had anything to write about that I think is important. But I seen a few comments from y'all in the past week and thought omg i better say something I bet they think I'm dead or something haha

I just been busy with school and work mostly. School is in what they call dead week.Its so you can study and prepare for finals which is next week. I hate to brag on myself but I have been doing really good so keep your fingers crossed I do good on my finals lol. I've went fishing a few times on the weekends with my uncle and cousins. That was fun it had been a while since I had been and it was good to get to go. Oh my puppy is growing like a weed and mean as a snake. Speaking of the puppy reminds me of Ryan just to say and y'all know that we broke up. I still read his blog and saw where he spoke about it. Were still on speaking terms and everything and if he ever needed any help with anything he knows he can call me. I am happy hes found him another guy he sounds happy and that's whats important. Since I brought up guys I'll just say I haven't found me another. Haven't really been looking either,if I happen to run into one so to speak that would be cool but for now its just me and my hands hehe. I wont say I haven't met any cute guys I have and actually hes gonna be moving in and sharing my apartment once school is out. Theres nothing between us he just wanted to stay near school for the summer. His family life is fucked up so I can relate to that. He'll be helping pay rent and bills so that will be a bit of a load off me. Well I reckon that's about it.I promise Ill try to not let another month pass before I post:)