I just cant believe what a great Christmas Ive had. What with Ryan coming up here and everything. We've had a great time here mostly been by ourselves so yeah for that. Christmas eve we did spend at my moms. She was really surprised with her coat. Hers was really old and she don't think about stuff like that. She would just wear the same old one forever and be happy with it. But Ryan asked me what I thought she needed and first thing come to mind was the coat. It did cost a bit more than I had planned on but that's why we went halfs on it. It was really Ryan's idea to go half on it he expected me to say something about the price so he beat me to the punch the little brat.I got Ryan some jeans and a few shirts. Oh and I cant forget the sexy underwear to bad he ain't had a chance to wear it yet haha. Ryan got me some jeans and a cologne he wears that I love the smell of. He also knows how I love my West Virginia Mountaineer football team,don't even get me started on their last game with Pitt where they had a chance to go to the championship game if they beat Pitt but they choked oh well it happens. Anyway they do get to go to the Fiesta Bowl in Glendale Arizona so Ryan surprised me with tickets to the game. You know me the cash register is ringing in my head and its to much so we compromise and I'm going to buy my own plane ticket and hes getting the hotel bill and extras if they ain't to much. Ive just decided to look at this whole money no money thing and take it in stride. I do have to laugh at him sometimes he gets so aggravated at me but hes learning to compromise and I cant help but love him for that.

This morning we went up in the mountains riding around and Ryan found a nice flat spot up on top the mountain he just loved. He talked me into going camping in the middle of winter no less. Its been in the 50's here during the day so its not to bad yet. Were going to borrow my uncles camper and his lanterns and stoves and do the camping thing tomorrow night I think. Maybe stay one night or two who knows. The game in Arizona is January 2 so we have to be back in time for that. Well thats about it me and my shadow are off to get some lunch.

Hey everybody yes I am finally back online. I never knew I would miss not having a computer so much but I did. A cute little elf brought me a early Christmas present yesterday. Yes Ed it took me a little while but I did find all the right holes and make the proper connections hehe. Of course y'all know by now Ryan is spending Christmas here with me. Sure am glad I didn't move out of my apartment yet. Rent was paid till the end of the month but I may just keep it now. I want to thank everyone for the comments on my misfortune of my apartment being broken into. A town of 3000 people you would think it wouldn't happen but just goes to show your not safe anywhere. I don't think it was Josh I seen a couple comments that maybe that's what people were thinking but I just don't think hes the type of guy to do that. Ive did a lot of thinking about me and Ryan over the past months since we been apart. The whole thing I have about money and not liking it been spent on me is something I have thought a lot about. Really it just comes down to the simple fact Ryan and his family have money and if I love him enough I will accept him with or without the money. I do love him so I'm going to accept it. Sure it will take time and I'm sure we will have arguments over him wanting to spend money on me but we will work through them. One thing I know he is not buying my love as someone said to me recently. Anyway that's about it I reckon. Ryan and me are going to go to my moms and hang out there a while then go to the mall and do a little shopping. Its funny Ryan cant believe we have to drive 30 miles to get to a mall. Ill leave yall with this pic I found this morning. Speaking of omg did I ever miss my porn on the internet haha. Hope this pic ain't to naughty for everyone. All the guys doing is sitting on the other guys lap hehe

Haven't really felt like blogging lately what with school and working nites seems like all I been doing is either asleep school or work. Luckily its winter break at school so I'm catching up on my sleep now. First semester of school went real good. To be honest it was easier than I had imagined it was gonna be. I had worked it up in my head that it was going to be hard and I was to old to be starting school again but that's just me seeing the negative side of everything as usual. Anyway that's all I had to say but I do want to leave you with this video. For some reason it just reminds me of someone

I found this really cool pic online that someone had taken of my town. Their up on the mountain looking down across the river. The big buildings you see at the top is the school I go to. The white one in the middle is the athletic center. I just thought it looked cool and wanted to share. I wish it was bigger but I could say that about a lot of things haha

A few of you know this about me but most don't. You may wonder why I'm writing about it. Well usually I just accept it and don't really think about it much. Thats not to say I havn't thought about it a lot in the past just not so much anymore. If your wondering I hate to talk on the phone. Let me repharase that I am scared to death to talk on the phone. Now you know how crazy I am haha. Most people my family or friends know this about me so they just accept it and don't call or if they do I know its an emergency. Trust me when I say I have thought about this long and hard why Im this way about the phone. Im no shrink but I come up with 2 reasons that may have caused it and both make sense. First reason is when I was little we had a phone but it was drilled into the kids that your not to use it only in case of emergencies. I dont know who know this or not but my "father" was a drunken asshole. Ive written about it before on another blog but never on this one. Anyway Ive been whipped more than a few times when I was little for using the phone for what he thought was a stupid reason. So if your whipped enough you eventually learn not to touch the phone. I know someone may comment and say Mike your 22 years old its time to grow up and act like a man. Well yeah I know that and dont think Ive not tried to beat this problem and maybe someday soon I will. Okay heres my 2nd reason why maybe Im scared to talk on the phone. Only my family and certain other people know this but I have a stuttering problem. Not so bad now but when I was younger it was real bad. And you know kids how mean they can be when they see a defect in someone. So you get made fun of at school and around and you learn not to talk so much. I have the stuttering whipped now to where I only do it at the beginning of sentences but still I'm self consious about doing it and thats why I think I dont use the phone much. Like if its my family or friends I'll talk on the phone cause they know I stutter but if it rings and I dont reconize the number I wont answer. Also I never start a call I will never call anyone. They always have to call me. Anyway thats one reason why I think Im crazy. Dont even get me started about me not liking pics of me being taken thats a whole nother can of worms.