Guess what y'all

Ok give up,Ill tell you. I ended up going to the Nascar race after all yesterday. It kind of happened all of the sudden like. I was thinking I was going to watch it on TV but about 8:30 yesterday morning I get a knock on the door.

Of course I'm shocked a bit about who it is, It was Corey and that parts not shocking cause he comes to visit all the time, but he had company and it was Ryan.

He's waving a ticket in his hand and tells me guess what, your going to the race with us. I said no I'm not I'll watch it on TV. He says that makes no sense a Nascar race only 30 miles away and you love Nascar but you going to watch it on a damn 20 inch TV.

I wont go into the argument but we get into a good one and finally he says well if you don't want the ticket I'll just rip it up and I don't even care that it cost 80 bucks. I know he would of torn it up to cause he's that way. He said whether you go or not I'll have spent 80 bucks on you so you just as well get off your pride horse and go.

So I went and had a great time, I enjoyed the race my driver Kasey Kahne came in 7th and it looked like he had a chance to win for a while but oh well.

I may have had to good of a time but only time will tell on that. You ever do something and soon as it's done you think, why in the hell did I just do that.

The path to true happiness is:

Having something to do

Having someone or something to love

Having something to hope for.

So far I strike out in all 3 but who knows what the future holds, more of the same maybe, or not.

I just found this link to the new movie Milk, the one Sean Penn just won an Oscar for. Just think you could be one of the first to have it. It don't release till March 10 but there taking orders for it now.

I had a chance to go to a Nascar race this weekend but had to turn it down. Their racing in Hampton which is not far from where I'm staying. Corey invited me, the whole family was going.

I can't see myself going to the race as much as I wanted to go and them paying for it. Corey was even trying to talk me into going by telling me he was paying for it himself but I know better.

It would probably been odd being at the race anyway cause Ryan and his boy friend was going to be there. Don't get me wrong I'm happy for them and every thing but I do think it would be awkward, not that I would ever do or say anything its just a funny feeling i have.

It's OK really cause I can still watch it on TV.

Did y'all ever think about when you was a kid what you wanted to do when you were grown. Like most kids would say fireman,policeman, doctor or teacher that type of stuff.

I reckon every kid probably did, that's is except me. I been doing a lot of thinking about when I was little and I honestly cant remember ever saying or even some one asking me what I wanted to be.

I don't even have a clue what I would have answered back then. There was no policeman in the holler I lived in. Only police was the state police and they never came up there. Same with a fireman I never seen a fire truck unless I went into town.

Maybe that's why I'm so fucked up now cause I never had a clue even at a young age what I wanted to be.

Now I'm just a mid 20's just started college stuttering mess.