Growing Up Confused
Did y'all ever think about when you was a kid what you wanted to do when you were grown. Like most kids would say fireman,policeman, doctor or teacher that type of stuff.
I reckon every kid probably did, that's is except me. I been doing a lot of thinking about when I was little and I honestly cant remember ever saying or even some one asking me what I wanted to be.
I don't even have a clue what I would have answered back then. There was no policeman in the holler I lived in. Only police was the state police and they never came up there. Same with a fireman I never seen a fire truck unless I went into town.
Maybe that's why I'm so fucked up now cause I never had a clue even at a young age what I wanted to be.
Now I'm just a mid 20's just started college stuttering mess.
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But you're sooooo BEAUTIFUL!!!!
You are just so....WOW...So...I
can't even put into words just how
perfectly beautiful you are...
I worry about you and wish you the
best everyday...I want so bad to
be able to wave a magic wand and
make it all better for you....
Honey....You are loved and you are
just so perfect to the ones who
love you...There is no getting
around that... :)
TACKLE YOU HUGS!!!!!!!!
I have no idea what I wanted to be as a kid. I just can't remember. Even when I were told at your age what I do now for a living (designing naval weapon systems) I would have either laughed at you or hit you (depending on your shoulder width). Well I'm not stuttering but feel quite uncomfortable around new people. And where I'm know? In frigging India which is packed with people. Life is full of unexpected junctions.
What I get from reading your blog is that you're a smart guy that will make it's way. Whatever obstacles might be there. Just don't be too proud to take the help from the people that love you. Maybe there will be a time when you can pay it back somehow.
By the way, I love the new picture on the top. Is this your eye?
I guess you don’t need my sympathy, but similar to the gentleman who has commented before, what I get from reading about you: You’re a strong person with a worthy character, so have confidence in yourself. For what it is worth, you will be in my thoughts.
This comment is for the previous post, as well.
Mike--I really hope you stick with it and try to find your way, where you are now. You are obviously having a very rough time, but you are a strong person and I just know you have a bright future ahead of you!
I know it sucks to have to depend on others, but look at it this way--if it were reversed, wouldn't you try to help Ryan's family in any way you could? Of course you would.
And so what if you didn't have a specific plan growing up, or even have one now? You are young and smart and willing to work hard, and you will figure things out.
You have a wonderful family supporting you emotionally. But maybe you need to also look for some professional help. I'm sure your college has a job placement office that can not only help with finding a job, but also how to deal with your stuttering issues in the workplace. And I'm sure there are support groups for stutterers---folks just like you who have found ways of coping with the stress, and the assholes, and all sorts of problems.
Laurie is so right--you are beautiful, and loved and we wish we could take away the pain and frustration like magic.
If our virtual hugs have any magic qualities, then you are indeed rich!
Please hang in there and grit your teeth and ask for the help you need, and accept what is being offered.
And keep blogging, 'cuz we really do care and want to know how you are!
Note: I commented on your last post.
When I was growing up people always asked me what I wanted to be. Ever since I was 3 I wanted to be a professional singer like Meriah Carey (younger mariah). Then when I won a county wide short story contest (number 2 out of thousands of applicants) I know that I could also become a writer. Now I have no clue what your going to school for maybe your what they call a floater but I made the decision on becoming a librarian. You have to go for 4 years and get a masters to become one. I never thought I would want to become a librarian. But being in that atmosphere, always wanting to read alot, and always wanting to be at the library I grew an interest in wanting to work at a place that I enjoyed and working around books. A great thing about being a librarian is, is that I can have a 9 to 5 job and still do what I love like writing and singing. Hopefully you picked something that your adament about. Also if you really want to try something you should try taking a career assesment test. They should have one at the career development center. Just take some time and see what pops up. I was surprised when (professional singer, writer, and librarian) popped up on the test. My best advise is to just expolore more of what you want.
Im here if you need me.
Hope you enjoy your monday,
Angel
Nah you're not Mike.
We're all 'down there' sometimes.
You'll be fine, don't worry so much.
Take care.
Dav
My best friend in the whole world that I grew up with since he lived two houses down from me was a big stutterer. Around me he seldom stuttered but around strangers he stuttered so bad that they would either make fun of him or roll their eyes at him. I never finished his words or treated him any different. His stuttering was a part of him I loved. He left me and went to heaven on Christmas day 2007 but I still miss him and can hear him singing. He never stuttered when he sang. I love you Nemo and I always will. Sorry, my eyes aren't the same today. ed
LOL I'm 33 and I still don't know what i want to be. So I try to just be a good friend.
Well, for many years as a kid, I wanted to be an astronaut and closely followed the space program. It's a far-off dream now, but I still haven't totally given up hope....who knows....some aliens might land here and I can sneak aboard their "flying saucer"!
I know you can overcome any difficulties to achieve your goals, because you are a strong and determined man. Being a few years older in college is probably a good thing because it gives you the extra maturity that some college students seem to be lacking. I see students at the college where I work that seem a bit childish.
And don't be ashamed to accept a little help from people if they offer it. They wouldn't offer if they didn't care for you and want to help.
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