Heres it been almost another month gone before a post from me lol. Really nothing going on with me other than working a fishin a little bit. Schools been out since the second week in May so thats good, To be honest I was getting tired of it. To say Im tired of it may be wrong. I just been depressed and sad a lot lately maybe thats it. One big reason is I miss Ryan and yes I know its over but still that dont keep me from missing him. Another thing is I dont think Im a very good friend. Like I had this one friend and true we didnt communicate much and it was only thru emails but one day I emailed him and he never wrote back so I sent another email ask if he was mad at me. He said no hes just been real busy. So I wrote back ok I wont bother you anymore. He never wrote back and I treid again and still nothing so I dont know. All I know is its sad to lose a friend. I know Im not a good friend,hell I got several emails from guys right now I need to answer its just Im to fucked up to do it.

The guy who was gonna move in when school let out finally got all moved in. Yes he started out just as a roommate but you know how things go cute guy and all alone in the apartment and me sad as fuck so yeah it happened hehe.

Im embarrased as fuck to even say it but I have started drinking. I dont know if its a problem yet anyway but with my dna,genes or whatever however you say it Im sure it will be. Me drinking makes me sad but yet I do it when Im sad how fucked up is that. Ill probably turn into a raging alcoholic drunk like my "father" and brother. Kinda ironic if I would end up like my "father" seeing as how I hateed his guts when he was alive and I end up just like him.

I been thinking recently of starting me a new blog just to post pics of hot guys. I know I had boys club and got depressed or something I dont know anyway I deleted it. But since I dont have a blog to post cute guys on right now Im gonna put one on here hehe. I wish I could say this is the guy moving in with me but just my luck hes not. Not to say the guy who is aint cute cause he is he just aint omg cute like this guy. I got 2 other pics of him showing more but didnt want to post on here so if anybody wanted to see just email and I'd be happy to send to you.

Wow I cant believe its been a whole month since I been on here posting anything. I cant say I haven't been on the internet cause I have. I just haven't had anything to write about that I think is important. But I seen a few comments from y'all in the past week and thought omg i better say something I bet they think I'm dead or something haha

I just been busy with school and work mostly. School is in what they call dead week.Its so you can study and prepare for finals which is next week. I hate to brag on myself but I have been doing really good so keep your fingers crossed I do good on my finals lol. I've went fishing a few times on the weekends with my uncle and cousins. That was fun it had been a while since I had been and it was good to get to go. Oh my puppy is growing like a weed and mean as a snake. Speaking of the puppy reminds me of Ryan just to say and y'all know that we broke up. I still read his blog and saw where he spoke about it. Were still on speaking terms and everything and if he ever needed any help with anything he knows he can call me. I am happy hes found him another guy he sounds happy and that's whats important. Since I brought up guys I'll just say I haven't found me another. Haven't really been looking either,if I happen to run into one so to speak that would be cool but for now its just me and my hands hehe. I wont say I haven't met any cute guys I have and actually hes gonna be moving in and sharing my apartment once school is out. Theres nothing between us he just wanted to stay near school for the summer. His family life is fucked up so I can relate to that. He'll be helping pay rent and bills so that will be a bit of a load off me. Well I reckon that's about it.I promise Ill try to not let another month pass before I post:)