It felt odd coming back to my town after being away as long as I was. I had only told 2 people I was gay before I left my mom and my favorite uncle. But it seemed like when I come home people on the streets were staring a whispering. I'm sure it was me just being paranoid. I did talk to my mom and uncle and asked if they had told anyone else my little secret. I knew my mom hadn't she wouldn't even know how to bring in up in conversation to someone. My uncle told me that he had told his 2 sons their guys around my same age. We've always been really close I think of them as brothers more than cousins. I spoke to them and they said they had an idea I was gay for a long time but it was cool with them so I knew they would never mention it to anybody. So the stares and whispers are just in my head.

Its kind of funny how "Josh" came to be my roommate. He had overheard my telling a teacher how I'd like to find me a roommate and butted in and said he'd be willing to go see my place and maybe be my roommate. I was leery of him at first cause I knew he was on the football team from the guys he was hanging with. If he did come live with me and he found out I was gay it would be like 10 minutes before the whole team knew. But its not like I had pics of naked guys hanging everywhere sure theres tons of porn on my computer but its in my bedroom so I thought whats the harm. So he went and looked at my place and liked it so he was in.

First thought living with a cute guy is normally or it is to me anyway is I'd love to see him naked. I asked him how he was about seeing other guys nude and he says he sees them all the time in the locker room and didn't have a problem with it. To get to the bathroom you have to walk through my bedroom so hes walking through to the shower on several occasions and I'm looking of course. I will say he has a very cute butt and the other parts look good as well. But anyway something happened one night that made me think this dude is gay. He sleeps in the living room on one of those couches that turn into a bed. Late one night hes coming through my room to go to the bathroom. He thinks I'm asleep and I see him stop at the bottom of my bed and stand there for several minutes. So I continue to act like I'm asleep. Ive got the covers off me cause its hot and sleeping in boxers. I'm semi-hard and I reckon he sees it and all the sudden I feel him lightly touching it. He did it just for a second but it was enough to make me think he may be gay.

Now hes got me curious about him so I'm thinking I'm going to have to be sneaking and bring up the subject of being gay. I love watching the show survivor on Thursday nights and theres a gay guy on it. "Josh" watches it to so one night when its on I start asking questions. I said I wonder if any of the other guys on the show are gay. He says he thinks one of them is. I forget his name but he use to be a model and got kicked off cause he was bossy. I said how do you know hes gay and he says he can tell just by the way he acts and his voice. I said oh really and didn't say much else about it. When the show went off I said do you think I sound or act gay and he said no and wanted to know if people had said I do in the past. Then I sat there for about 5 minutes and I'm thinking what the hell I'll just tell him and if he freaks out ill bring up him rubbing my cock a few nights ago. So I say well it may come as a shock to you but I'm gay. He didn't say anything then I said I was scared to tell you cause you might s[read it around your team. He said that would be mean and he'd never do anything like that. I asked him if it bothered him that I was gay and if he wanted to move out I'd understand. He said he had no problem with it and was happy living with me. I decided not to bring up him touching me I figured if he wanted me to know he was gay he'd tell me in his own time. So about a week passes and were sitting watching TV and he just out of the blue just blurts out he was gay. He said it was the first time he had ever said it out loud and started crying. So I get up and hug him and tell him its ok hes among friends and he can be himself as much as he wants around me. I was trying to be funny so next I said by the way you owe me a feel cause I was awake the night you was touching me. He started laughing so it worked. How we became a couple it just happened slowly just sitting next to each other on the couch and I decided to kiss him and he didn't pull away. The rest I guess you can use your imagination.

Someone sent me a email and asked if I would be posting a pic of "Josh". Well that I would have to say no to. But I did ask him if it was ok if I was to send a pic of him to people I knew I could trust thru email instead of posting it on here. He said that would be ok but he wanted it to be a pic of him in his jersey. Its already on the schools website so he didnt see the harm. So if anyone was interested just email and if I know you Ill send the pic.